Anger

I will not be in high school of course if I haven’t been in elementary. My elementary memories were sixty percent memories full of happiness. Do you want to ask why sixty percent only and where is the forty percent? Of course behind my happiness is my sadness. Even though these sad memories are only few but they are very heavy. And in this entry you are only to read my biggest frustration in my elementary years, which is until now is still my unforgettable and biggest frustration I had.

I will start my narration with a sad memory. And the first sad memory I had was the conflict between me and one of my closest friends. Our conflict started when I told something to my classmate and then this classmate of mine told this close friend and take note my classmate passed a wrong message. And when I have explained to my friend on what really happened, she just ignored me because she really believes on our classmate. I felt so bad at that time but my heart rejoiced when I knew that my friend already knew the real side of the story. Then she went to me and apologized on what she have done and I had given her my forgiveness. And then I told her that our friendship this time is stronger and eventhough at first we don’t have trust but now our trust is the building block of our friendship.

Let’s go to my teachers. I loved my teachers when I was elementary because they taught me many things in life. But I have anger to some of my teachers when I was in grade six. I felt this towards them because they are “plastics”. And I am sorry if I told this word to you. It’s just that I can’t help myself to feel the anger if I can see the six of you. And I know that in the near future the five of you will receive her karma just like what your leader had received.

And Lord please forgive me on the things that I have said.

This sadness of mine is really a frustration. My world was very dark and I really felt bad to my teachers during those times. I am talking to the time of my graduation, I am an aspiring valedictorian but my crown was taken off from me. And I really felt sorry and pity for myself because that was the first time in my life, which my father didn’t approach my graduation ceremonies. And I do know and understand that during those times my father and my mother are really disappointed on the outcome. Aside from the disappointment and humiliation, my anger reached a point at which I am going to burst and I had promised myself something. I promised myself that I will never study like the study I have gone through for the past years and I will let God hold my grades when I will go to high school. That was a promise of mine that until now is never been broken. I guess if I will have my close friends here with me in UP high, I am sure that they can observe the difference between myself during my elementary years and during this time.

But now I have already took a step to heal my wounded heart. And I know that this wounded heart’s healing process will take years or even a lifetime. It may be hard for me to disappoint my parents again at this time because of my low grades but I must also not forget that I have a promised myself and I don’t want this to break.

And ma, pa please forgive me if I am like this because I just want to keep a promise although it hurts.

"Biologically" Speaking...

They say we won’t be here without our parents, and I thank them because of what they have done to us. But because of my Biology class, it opened up my mind to the real world and made me learned that we must also extend our gratitude to both the sperm and egg cells of our father and mother. In addition and I am sure that everyone knows it, and this is the process where all living organisms produce offspring called reproduction.

As an introduction, males have their male reproductive system, which has penis, scrotum, vas deferens, and most especially the chief male reproductive organs, the two testes. And on the other hand, females have their female reproductive system, which has the oviduct, urethra, vagina and if males have testes, well females have their ovary. Males have their hormone testosterone. Testosterone is the principal male sex hormone and is responsible for making the whole male system active. While females have a hormone called follicle-stimulating hormone. This hormone is responsible for stimulating the ovarian follicle to grow and reach maturity. This hormone of females is only one among many other hormones in the female system.

And now let’s proceed to the process.

All of our mother won’t be pregnant if it isn’t her fertile days, so there must be ovulation—when a follicle matures, its wall ruptures, setting the ovum free. Ovulation takes place in both ovaries alternatively. While the ovum enters the opening end of the oviduct, sperms are introduced into our very own female system, they travel upward until they reach the lower portion of the oviduct. During that time, many sperms are surrounding the ovum. Sperm is believed that it has enzymes, which are responsible for dissolving the thick outer layer of the ovum, and when one sperm penetrated the outer layer of the ovum and then fertilize it. Then the uniting of sex cells or gametes is taking place and there will be fertilization. After fertilization, zygote undergoes cell division as it goes down and resulting mass of these undifferentiated cells is embryo. With the help of the umbilical cord—structure which connects the embryo to the mother; and the placenta—part of the uterus to which the umbilical cord is attached; the embryo can get rid of waste materials such as urea. And that embryo is I, you and all of us. My mother told me that I stayed in her womb for more or less than 9 months, (which is the normal period for a baby to stay in a mother’s womb). She added that she really had a hard time releasing me from her womb because I am big and it took the doctor more or less 3 hours just for getting me out. After giving birth, my mother felt asleep and she wake up the next day. The doctor told my mother that I was a normal and healthy baby girl. My mom gave me breast feeding for more than 1 and a half years and she gave me vitamins for my growth and mental strength.

And I am pretty sure that your mother and father really took care of you. Because there is no parent that can’t resist his or her kids.

A new world!

To tell you honestly, I am not a sport lover but when I discovered the world of UP in sports, it is really different.

Intramurals in UP high is really, really lively from our ordinary school day. It’s like you had entered a New World, a world of excitement, thrill and most especially the spirit of sportsmanship. And never in my life that I will forget about this experience of mine.

It was still fresh in my mind on what I have felt when I knew about the intamurals during November 2005. I can’ explain what I am feeling at that very moment, I felt an excitement inside of me but I am also afraid. I am excited because I want to feel the atmosphere of UP high in full energy. And I am afraid at that time because when if I am going to join a team of a certain kind of sports, I might bring the team towards failure. But I have realized that when you’re afraid this could really cause your failure. So I have decided to change my negative vibes to something good that could make me feel much better. Although we ranked last, it is just fine with me and in the whole group. Because at least we inserted teamwork and individual effort.

So when I entered the next phase, my second year life, the whole sophomores’ community had really prepared for the upcoming 2007 intramural games. I still joined chess and I became the captain for dama (girls) players and my new favorite sport, softball. Softball is really, really cool. Three weeks before the intamurals, we really had an extensive training in playing softball; of course we play after dismissal. At the same time we are teaching the freshmen on how to play softball of course with some seniors especially Ate Geraline. Playing softball is fun and it made me feel the feeling of being a true player. But I had also never forgotten my other games. And both my dama and chess playmate is Ronald, a good classmate of mine.

The most awaited time of the year comes, Intramurals 2006. Although the day is so good, the sun was shining brightly and the cheers of every year level would really lift your spirit up but I felt that something is wrong with me. Then I just have discovered it after having the cheerdance. I discovered that I have fever and good for me because I went to the clinic and I had rest there. After having a nap I directly went back to the campus so that I can prepare for my games which are chess and softball. At exactly 1:00 p.m. I went to the Physics laboratory because the venue is there. Then at 2:00 p.m., my softball game will start. So I have told the captain of the softball team that I won’t play because I have fever and I guess that my chess game would not end at exactly 2:00 p.m. although I haven’t played softball, fortunately, I won all of my three games. But on the other hand the softball team didn’t won over the seniors but it is alright because I know that seniors really had a greater experience than us so we really had expected them to win.

On our following games we had beaten the juniors and the freshmen. So again in the championship our team will face the seniors. So as expected they won the game. I won’t deny that they are really good softball players and both teams showed sportsmanship.

My memories during every year’s intramurals are really unforgettable. Most especially I can always remember the friends I have met and the good values I have gathered.

So next year, if you aren’t still a player in any sport, then you must join next year. I am sure you will feel the same feeling I have felt.

Family

“You’re life would never work out without a family.
For you’re family are like your friends.“

“A family that prays together stays together”- this is just a common quote or saying which we can hear it in television advertisements, radios, magazines and almost everywhere. But until now I am still hoping that I can achieve the literal meaning of that. As in, I am wishing that me with my whole family would pray together so that we will stay together forever even though me and the rest of the siblings will get married and will have his or her kids. I am saying this because never in my life I have experienced this so I am trying very hard. But it is just fine, for as long as we are united, peaceful and happy.

I can say that I am not that close with the rest of the members in the family even to my mother or to my sister. I am not close to them because I am not an open person. For example, if I have anger inside of me then this anger will still remain in me and I will never share it to anyone else. But I can’t consider this situation as bottling my emotions because I am showing my anger to the one who made me feel that kind of feeling. So do you get it? I hope so.

I will introduce my family to you let’s start with my father, he is Mr. Narciso Allones-Gomez. My father is the one who chose all our names from my oldest brother down to my older sister then me and then my baby brother. And I am happy about it because my father chose nice names, so thank you pa!

Then my mother, she is Mrs. Virginia Jereza-Gomez. I am grateful that Lord gave me a good mother although there are times that there is a misunderstanding between the two of us. My mother is a good cook, in fact she is in demand when there are occasions in our neighbors. I can describe my mother as a loving, caring, understanding and is always there whenever I need her. I love you ma!

Next is my oldest brother, he is Van Niel J. Gomez. My brother is an Electrical Technology graduate in Cebu State College of Science an Technology also known as CSCST. I don’t know with my brother why he shifted his course from Computer Science to Electrical Technology. Maybe the answer is because he misses us. He misses us because he studied Computer Science in Saint Joseph’s College in Maasin, Leyte. But he only needs one semester to graduate then he comes back here. But I can’t blame him and as what they say, past is past. My brother is working at a Japanese restaurant. He has a girlfriend, which is already a nurse. And when they are together, they look so good because both of them are handsome and beautiful.

My sister is Vanessa J. Gomez. She is a second year student at Cebu Normal University and her course is Secondary Education. My sister is talented, beautiful and artistic. We always fight whenever we are together but it is fine with me because I am used to it.

And lastly is my younger brother, Van Nyle J. Gomez. He just recently finished his kinder one studies last March 16 of this year. He is naughty and hardheaded but although he is like that, you can tell him to run for you an errand. He is also handsome and intelligent.

These are all the information if not all well, almost all information about my family. Summarizing it all, my family is a happy, beautiful, understanding, unified and loving. Eventhough as like what I have said before, I am not that close to them but my love for them is unconditional. I don’t know what my life would be without them because they are my everything, they are the air that I breathe, the food that I take in, the water I drink and most of all they are my friends that I am sure I could really count on no matter what happens. So to my family thank you very, very much for everything you have done to me. I love you so much!

Addictive

I am really an anime addict but I don’t know why I am like this. At the very first place I do love to watch telenovelas or koreanovelas (these are television or drama shows in Korea that is being showed here in the Philippines) rather than watching anime shows. But I changed my mind when I discovered an anime show that is being aired at channel seven and this is Lupin the Third.

Lupin III is all about a sage thief whose name is Lupin III and he is with his group. Lupin likes or let’s just say loves a girl and her name is Fujiko. Fujiko is a sexy and a beautiful lady yet behind her beauty you can’t really say that she is tough but the truth is, she really is. They steel precious things like expensive gems, paintings or sculptures inside a museum and they also steel huge amount of moneys in banks or in any huge establishments.

You see! I really know anything about this anime show and this anime in my list but nothing compares with how I supported the “Prince of Tennis”.

Prince of Tennis is all about a first year student who is a member of the Seigaku Tennis Club. And I am pertaining to no any other than Ryoma Echizen. Ryoma is the youngest in the tennis club yet in his young age he had already joined the magic eight line-up. And you will not be shocked if he’s really a very, very, very good player because his father was once a champion in tennis in the whole wide world. Ryoma also joined a lot of tournaments and fortunately, they can always bring home the bacon. During this week and maybe still until next week (March 19-30), is their battle against the champion of last year’s tournament which is Reica Academy. Ryoma together with his team mates namely: Fuji, Kikumaru, Oishi, Inui, but they are only the four among the seven other players. And I am sure that they will win because of their extensive training and their determination to win plus they are already very good players then there is a big percentage of probability that they can win over Reica Academy. Eventhough their team captain can’t join with them, Teska, because of his injury during the elimination round in the regionals, I know they can still do it. Of course, because Ryoma is there. And in addition, I can say that Ryoma is their ace player, and maybe the heir of the captaincy of Teska. I said it because Ryoma has really a big and brighter future on his tennis career although when it comes to his studies he is a little bit low but it is just fine because he doesn’t have a failing mark.

Prince of Tennis is aired every weekday (Monday-Friday), 4:00-4:30 in the afternoon in Qtv channel 27.

Another anime show that I really like is DN Angel. I also saw it first in Qtv channel 27. I love it because there is a mixed of love, action and friendship. My crush on that anime show is Dark. Dark is a very handsome guy, he is also intelligent, a good fighter, wise and most of all, a loyal lover. His counterpart is Light. Light maybe symbolizes purity or goodness as what have you think but Light is the opposite of that. He is the worst man I ever met in any other anime shows. But Dark, oh! Although his name in our mind looks like a bad guy but the truth is he is so, so good. If only Dark is a true human being oh, how I wish but we can’t do anything about it because we can only see him inside the television screen.

I have a lot of anime shows that I really, really admire like Ouran High School, Flame of Recca, Dragonball Z and much, much more!

An anime show is really addictive like a drug but I promised myself not only to think about these things, I must also concentrate on my studies very well. So in my schedule, I can only watch television shows especially anime shows whenever I have nothing to do but when I have, well I must forget about it first.

So therefore, grades first then anime shows.

Want to know?

They say UPians have everything; although they may not have the physical beauty that would probably surpass those of other private schools but they have their very gorgeous internal beauty, and most of all and I am sure everyone knows this, “they’ve got the brains”.

By the way I am proud to say that I am a full-blooded UPian. And I am writing this just to inform you all that a UPian is not everything that you think he or she may be. UP students like me have our limitations.

As this entry goes on, you will probably discover similarities and differences that we UPians have, like any other ordinary students out there, whether from a public or private institution.

We are not geeks. We are not fat, over-diligent, all-knowing people with horn-rimmed glasses who isolated themselves from the rest of the world to study! So, you can now forget the assumption that we are not just outspoken boys and girls who sulk in classrooms or in libraries. We go to the mall too!

Speaking of bluntness, we can’t just keep our feelings to ourselves. Everything about UP excudes freedom of expression. You can do whatever you like to your life because for one, it’s your life; and only you can decide whether to live it your way or let others drive your life for you. I mean, these people don’t even know what you like. So, why don’t you stand out, get your life back and live it your way?

And so much for that, now let’s go to some of our negative or our opposite side. First in the list is cleanliness. If you enter UP high or when a visitor enters the campus without us knowing or us students knowing, oh my God! It’s a mess. The surroundings are really dirty. Maybe because we students are just tired in listening and answering questions.

Next is, we UPians are lazy. If you think that we are very diligent in studying our lessons, well you are very wrong. For example, we are deadliners, as in we submit our projects during the deadline and sometimes we ask for extension. Another, we are last minute people. Like during our “Florante at Laura”, oh I can’t say anything good. That was very messy because imagine this, we had only practiced the whole play during that very day (our presentation is still in the evening).

Another thing about us that is really true, we don’t work individually or selfishly we work on our assignments as a class. But take note, we only do this if we have assignments and not during tests.

And in addition if you were there you would really be surprised because you will think that you are in Carbon or in Pasil or in any place that is crowded because of our noise meaning we are noisy people.

UPians are also afraid of long quizzes or any other kinds of tests. I am not saying that all of the students studying in this institution are dull, of course 95% of the total population of UP are intellectuals. What I am trying to say is that you can’t really say that a person is clever if he or she studies at UP, you must also know his or her participation in school academically.

Now, I already had given you a few of the UPians another side behind their brains.

Lastly, they say UPians are free because they are living in a democratized environment. You’re wrong. Although yes, we are living in a democratized environment but we are not free to do whatever we want. Like bringing of cellphones. But I do understand our administrators because me, myself knows that this can disrupt our learning. But I can’t still feel the freedom.

So what do you think of us, UPians?

Mr. Perfect?

Does Mr. Perfect exist?

What is your answer? Oh! I guess I know it, your answer is yes. No I am just kidding, I know every person’s answer varies and I do respect all your answers. But I am curious about the identity of this Mr. Perfect. What is his first name? Is he handsome or not? Is he rich or not? Or is he tall or short? — These are only a few of my questions about this controversial "Mr. Perfect".

Let’s go to my point of view, I have started to think about it when I met this boy. This boy lives about six blocks away from our house and let me call him as "Ring". "Why ring?"— Because he gave me a ring last February.

I met him through my friends who are accidentally his friends also and this happened September of 2006. Well when I met him he was very quiet while the rest of us are talking to the maximum level. But that was only my impression to him during the first week meaning in the second week he already adjusted and although he is still silent sometimes, I never thought that he was a very jolly companion. Since then we are always together because let’s just say we are compatible, no! I am just kidding. But really we have some characteristics which are some how the same. Just like, I am quiet and they say although I am like that, I am fun to be with (Cheng told me that) while this boy, like what I have said before, he is quiet yet a very funny companion. And we don’t have dull moments when we are together.

Now I will go to his family background, he came from an average and a happy family. His mother is my friend and also his father. He is second among the three siblings and take note, they are all boys. He is a second year high school student and he will be fifteen this May. His older brother is already in college and his younger brother is in Grade six.
To tell you the truth, I like him. He is a gentleman and in fact when there is a time that we go to school together, he pays for my fare. He is also thoughtful. But I won’t give you details about this. And the top three things I like about him are his: understanding, caring and most especially he’s sweet. And summing that all together, he is my ultimate crush.
I can dare to say it here because he already knows it and I also know his answer, do you want to know his answer? -- It is just between the two of us but I will give you a hint, his answer is something very good.

Honestly, he is the one who confessed his feelings first then I just followed him and told him everything about this.

I almost forget, if you ask me if "Ring" is "Mr. Perfect", well I can’t answer your question but this is all I can say, eventhough "Ring" isn’t my Mr. Perfect or is Mr. Perfect I do still like him. And whenever we will be apart from each other for over a long time, who knows when the time comes that we will meet again if we were really destined for each other, Then maybe he will be my "Mr. Perfect" and I maybe his "Ms. Perfect".